Roxie rambles 🏳️‍🌈 @roxie@queerdorks.club

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Hi, I'm in the worst position I have been money wise Inna while. I've been struggling to work and job search at the same time (I work freelance) and just dealing with my mental health. I'm now hlin the overdraft of my account with both my credit cards maxxed (£200 and £500 respectfully) and have took out the last of my savings which was £100.

So I'm basically just running out of money all together and struggling to handle this rn and just thinking about it boggs me down in a deep pit and makes working harder.

Any help towards me paying this off or being able to have money for the month while I try and get back to work would be appreciated. I mostly need to be able to pay for my own transition which I've been doing for 2+ years now.

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Honestly ever little helps. Like if everyone who sees this only donated £2 that would be a lot combined. #mutualaid #MutualAidRequest

If this interested someone then I also have the email me@roxanne.dev

My github also https://github.com/roxxers

On another note for today. I am also looking for a software dev full time job for anyone hiring someone in the UK. I know python, golang, and node js and ts. I mostly do back end but are open to learning front end as part of a full stack position learning stuff like vue.js. I'm seriously a good dev who's struggled in traditional interviewing and am just looking for one shot in a full time job. I've been looking for two years with no success.

Going live racing in the first race of the league im in F3 cars with. Live now!!! at https://www.twitch.tv/roxxersboxxer

60 min practice, quali, then 20 lap race!

Going live racing in the first race of the league im in F3 cars with. Live in like 10 at https://www.twitch.tv/roxxersboxxer

Now I've found the part that he says that the character before was called the doll and basically wasn't made because execs didn't want a "transsexual terrorist". The article is written in 1982 or 3 so wording is find there but he does describe the character of the doll as freakish. I'm unsure if that's to do with the transness tho considering he actually doesn't bring up the trans part until the bit about it getting rejected? Implying that wording is meant to be inferred that way? Its not clear but then we see parts of the books story that are very trans coded mostly in illusions to hormone experiments once V enters the concentration camp, the lesbian cell neighbour story could be V we don't know, the idea of V removing Envy's gender expression as part of the simulation they make her go through which leads her to act androgynous for the rest of the book, the woman researcher wanting to see V's face and calling it beautiful before she dies, and the fact that V says Envy must never actually see V's face and that could be read into not wanting to see what it became.

Most of that I got from an article that argues this but also never mentions the bit about the doll which I got from the article Alan Moore wrote in Warrior #17 that then got put at the end of the novel version of V for Vendetta called "Behind the painted smile" which I could not find online. Had yo use my big copy from reading a random blog who says they read it from the back of the book.

Here's the source of the in book references https://comicsverse.com/v-for-vendetta-transgender-hero/

Finding out that V is coded as a trans woman forced to detransition in the concentration camp is hitting me different a lil atm and making me emotional. Kinda funny who the wachoski sisters then wrote the screenplay for the movie adaptation but yeah just hitting me hard.

Interview at 11. Getting breakfast then just gunna make sure I'm ready. Its basically a redo of the one I did last week. This time i will.being going in with an actual understanding of kinda what vue.js is. I'm debating being honest that I didn't really prep for vue before but when i saw how.important of is and how steep the learning curve was I had to go away and learn it for this interview?